Why blog???

My OCD has been bothering me today. I know that I will have it forever, but I know that in the future it will no longer be this burden on my shoulders and instead a gnat buzzing around my head. I have made progress over this past year with the help of medicine and therapy... but still, when it does bother me, I feel like I can't endure another day of it. Yet somehow... I do. Sometimes when I'm afraid, I mean really afraid, I shake. Sometimes I even whisper Jesus' name while laying in my room at night. I feel like no one knows what I go through. I have no one to tell me it's going to be ok. That they have Violent Obsessions OCD too... but there isn't. At least not yet. I wish there was some kind of support group for it or something. I know I'm not the only one with this disorder... but sometimes I feel so alone. That's how I feel today- alone. So if you're somewhere out there reading this and you feel alone in your OCD, know that somewhere someone else knows what it's like to be you... and to be me.